The mystery of my lamp

I have a beautiful lamp, standing on my floor. Years ago I fell in love with it and it has been moving along with me to many new addresses I lived at throughout the years. Besides its beauty, there was never anything special about it. Until a few months ago. It is a mystery, a beautiful one though! A Divine miracle I want to share with you...

My lamp is an old lamp. I have no clue what it's worth in money. Probably not much, but that doesn't matter at all. It is made of copper, with those beautiful shapes on the foot of the lamp. I changed the lampshade a few times due to wear and tear.

 

It had to be?

No matter the material value, I will never sell it. This lamp is special to me. It always has been like that. I think we all have those pieces of furniture. They breathe a special energy. I think this lamp is already really old. I found it on the street, it was dumped by other people. I was so thrilled when I took it with me! It was like it picked me out of thousands of people to find him. Like it had to be like that!

Something mysterious about my lamp

A few months ago something mysterious started to happen about this lamp. Maybe you will laugh about it. Or think I'm crazy. Or maybe you would consider it coincidence. It doesn't matter. To me it is a miracle. And if you don't believe me you're invited to come and see it happen ;-)

My lamp would stop burning every now and then. Or not start burning at all when I turned it on. No big deal. An old lamp. Maybe something about the wiring or the plug. I called a friend, he replaced the plug, but meanwhile told me that there was actually nothing wrong with it. It was only for me he did it. Just to be sure.

Because there was nothing wrong with the wiring and the plug. So replacing stuff didn't change anything. At some days it would burn brightly, on other days my lamp seemed to take a break or so. I moved it, I shook the wires, plugged it in and out, with zero results.

Without doing anything the next day it would burn again. Sometimes for weeks in a row. Or only a few days. It was a bit strange. Mysterious. Technically where was nothing wrong with it. The outlet was perfectly fine too, because other devices worked well after plugging them in.

Becoming aware of my feelings and emotions

The last 3 to 4 months I started practicing my spirituality again. Because of Lyme Disease and my sudden disabilities, I had been too depressed and too tired to do so. But I understood the importance and I picked it up again. Especially for my healing process.

Step by step I started meditating again and reading spiritual books. It took a lot energy in the beginning, but practice and discipline bring great results. You get better even if you take small steps, even baby steps will move you forward.

Divine Power

Soon I was more aware of the way I feel, act and behave. Which is normal, when you tune in to "Divine channels". No matter how you address the "higher powers" in our Universe. You might call it God, Jesus, Buddha, Allah, the Universe, Love, etc. These are only names. It's in my opinion all about the same: the miracle of love and life.

If you (re)connect with these Divine power, you become aware, you become more sensitive. You notice things that were already happening, but you didn't see it before.

That is what happened to me too. When you tune in to Divine Love you have ups and downs. I had (and still have) good days and bad days. Which is very normal. I accept it, it is part of being a "student of the University of life".

My lamp as a reflection of my inner light

Observing my good and bad days brought a new awareness. Obviously on good days you are a powerhouse, that's what I call it. You feel so connected with the Universe. On those days you radiate loving energy. On the bad days however, your energy is low. Everything seems dark. And this all of the sudden brought an inside in relation to my lamb.

I thought: "Is it possible that there is a relationship between my light and dark days and my lamp burning?"

So I started to observe. And guess what. If I had a low day, the day after that low day, my lamp wouldn't burn. But if I had a great day, the lamp would burn the next day! I made notes how I felt every day. And notes about the burning of my lamp. And guess what: it was always the same!

So in a miraculous way this lamp reflects my inner light in retrospective! If I was "shining" the day before, so would my lamp the day after. Can you believe it? It is true! I am not joking! There were no exceptions. Not a single day! And it still works like that.

Thankful for my "light buddy"

Now my already special lamp has turned into a blessing I could never imagine before. My lamp has become my "light buddy". It is a blessing and a wonderful challenge to make it shine every day! I love its light, it shines beautiful if my inner light did as well. I really dislike it if my lamp refuses service.

My lamp has become a friend I can practice with. It is my mirror. My lamp mirrors whether or not my inner love and light energy were strong enough the day before. 

You may call me crazy

That is your good right. But don't worry: I am not dangerous and I don't harm anyone :-) On the contrary! It makes me a better person. I do my utmost now to let my inner light shine, which will result in a beautiful outer light. Isn't that awesome!

Life is a blessing full of miracles! 

Love and blessings to all of you!
Namasté!



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Celebrating my successes instead of grumbling over losses

Whatever life brings to you, you always have some choices. You can choose how to handle several types of situations. You can choose your focus and perspective. Life is full of choices. You always have the freedom to pick whatever you like most.

Maybe you read my story about Lyme disease and that this disabled me, but still has been a blessing in disguise. Apart from that, I stand for the principle that you get more of what you give attention too. It is a matter of mindset, the way you look at life. It all has to do with focus!

This weekend I cleaned my bed. You know, the sheets etc. Healthy people might think: "So what, I do this every week".

To me it is not that easy. It took me 30 minutes to finish this small task. Such a task is huge to me! And afterwards I was drained.

In such a situation I have a choice!

I can choose to focus on the fact that it is very hard for me to do the job that needs to be done. And feel terrible sorry for myself when I'm feeling drained after finishing it. Instead of doing that, I simply focus on the joy it brings me that I am able to do it! That I did it, one handed and not very stable on my legs.

Every time I do such a thing as cleaning my bed, I celebrate the success and that feels so good! Not being dependent on others to help me. I could easily ask others to do this for me, but I don't want to. No matter how much energy it takes and how painful it is to my body. I want to accomplish something. I want to simply do it!

I refuse to focus on the discomfort and pain

Nothing can stand in my way. I want to feel joy instead of feeling bad about my condition. And this works. My body is still drained, this doesn't change. But instead of drowning into misery, I celebrate the fact that again I pushed my limits successfully. And that feels so good!

I was crying tears of joy, as I always do after successes like this. I felt so happy and even reflecting back on such a "simple task" like described above, I feel the joy! This helps me big time! My mindset is focused on happiness and every time I feed my mind with happy thoughts and feelings I become stronger. The inner happy me grows, which is visible on the outside. Every time I look happier, no matter what!

Celebrate your successes no matter how small they are

Every person has nasty situations, problems, challenges. All on our own level. And in every situation is a blessing. Success is around the corner, it's a matter of looking in the right direction. You can do it to. By being aware of your thoughts and feelings. How do you handle your dark days? What do you think and feel when you have a challenging task to finish? And after answering this, did it make you feel happy to think, feel and/or act like that? If not, it is time to change something! Think of a plan and execute it!

You can do it! If I can, you can do it too, there is no difference between you and me. We are all ONE! Never give up, keep on trying until you made it! In your own perfect pace!


Love and blessings to all of you!
Namasté!



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Why Lyme disease can be a blessing in disguise

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I can hear you shout out loud: "What! Are you crazy? How dare you call such a serious disease a blessing!" Please don't misunderstand me. Being a Lyme patient is horror. It is a nightmare and the consequences of being so sick are not joyful at all.

I am a survivor

Of course I feel frustrated about what this nasty tick did to my body. I pay the price. Like millions of others worldwide who, like me, also got infected. You can read my story here. Especially in the beginning, when this disease worsened and I became disabled.

Boy, I was so depressed, you don't want to know. I think anyone would. Especially when you used to be a sports and active person before. I was a person that loved to run, bike, swim, etc. That was taken away from me all of the sudden.

I admit I had a hard time accepting my new situation. It wasn't easy at all. But I am not the type of person that dwells into negative thinking. Never have been and probably never will be. My mindset has always been the one of a survivor instead of feeling a victim of circumstances.

Which doesn't mean I never showed victim behavior since I was bitten. I did! A lot! Sometimes I still do. I am no Saint or so. And I guess even a Saint would complain every now and then. Maybe not in public. But still...

 

You always have a choice

When you become seriously ill, like I did, a lot of things change. You can't keep on doing what you were doing anymore. Your life turns upside down. Lots of the things you used to take for granted before, are gone. History. They might never come back. I don't know right now.

I live in the moment. Right now my life is the life of someone who is disabled. I depends on the help of others for stuff like cleaning my house. My active life I was used to is over with. It has been for a few years. A new reality entered my life.

When things happen to you, like they happened to me, you have a choice. You can dwell upon the fact that a lot of things were stolen from you. You can chose to stay depressed and angry. But I refused that. After I survived the first emotions and accepting the new me, I didn't want to stay bitter and sad forever.

Instead of feeling sorry for myself I first was angry with myself. I needed to get real and stop thinking my life was over. Instead of fighting the new circumstances, I decided to accept my new life and even embrace it.

A blessing in disguise

I started a soul search deep inside myself. That wasn't always easy, but I needed to do this. Because I didn't want to be defeated by my disease. Thus I became a warrior instead of a survivor. A spiritual warrior.

Everything happens for a reason

I believe that nothing "just" happens. There are hidden life lessons in every situation. No matter what that situation is like. For me the lesson was to learn to listen to myself. To step out of the rat race. To stop running away from myself. And last but not least: to become softer and more loving.

Before the disease entered my life, I was positive minded. But on the other hand I was so tough on myelf and on others. I avoided my true emotions and the soft side of me. I was afraid to listen to my intuition and to the soft sound of my inner voice.

Because of Lyme Disease I was no longer able to run away. Life forced me to finally listen to the real me. To have more compassion and become peaceful and loving. Life reminded me the need to listen to myself and others. To let go of negative statements and thinking.

 

It takes time to get there

This didn't happen overnight of course. I had my own struggle. Nobody could help me. I had to do it all by myself. I am so thankful I did! I had the guts and the courage to dive into the deep ocean of my soul! It was scary sometimes. We carry a lot of mud and garbage with us, we are usually not aware of.

I feel thankful, not defeated!

Because I am sick, I have a lot of time. All the time in the world to keep on working on myself. Time to improve and dig out the real me. If Lyme Disease wouldn't have entered my life, I'd never had the chance to do this. So in the end, this terrible disease is a blessing too.

I learned important life lessons, which I will share about in future blogs. My life is good. I'm back on track. Still sick, but I changed from the inside. A soul cleansing. I picked up stuff that I am still able to do. Like writing. I have time for my passions. It takes more of my energy, but that is not a problem. I go for it!

If you are in a simular situation, I really hope you will find your way back to the real you. And that you, besides the anger, sadness and grieving about your lost life, will find your blessings too. Go find them! It's worth every effort, even if it takes you many tears and pain. The reward is big!

Blessings to all of you!
Namasté!